I’ll admit it, I’m selfish. I’m selfish with my time, my thoughts, my energy, my feelings, I’m selfish when it comes to me. This is something hard for me to admit and I partially believe it’s because of the negative connotations that the word has attached to it.
Selfish; (of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one’s own personal profit or pleasure
Although that is the correct definition there is also a positive aspect to the word.
There was a time in my life where I was really low. I was becoming someone that I didn’t want to be, I could hardly look at myself in the mirror. I would say it took me a good year and a bit to build up the courage to say that I no longer wanted to live the way I was. I needed to make a change. Like many people “where the hell do I start?” I started getting rid of the toxic people in my life, people that didn’t bring out the best in me. That alone gave me more time to focus on me, my daughter and the career path that I wanted to be on. I won’t lie I did hit a few bumps in the road to self recovery but never once did I give up. Life isn’t easy and giving up is failing, that was something I was not going to do. I was determined to get through.
And here I am here today. Stronger than I have every been but also very happy from where I came from. If it’s something that is going to compromise my well being or the flow of my energy don’t call on me. Sounds harsh but quite frankly it’s the truth. I am not saying that I have no compassion because if you need a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen or arms for comfort I will be there no questions asked. I am talking about things/ people that put a negative effect on your daily life. Things that will change the positive direction that you are going in. Investing in yourself is the f$**ing best investment that money can’t buy! Love starts with you. If you don’t love yourself how can you love others? How will you know what love is? I know it sounds cliché but its the truth. Putting your needs over the wants of others is not selfish. It is the ones who put their wants over the needs of others that is selfish.
Remember, love and begins and ends with you. Only when you truly love yourself are you free. And that isn’t being selfish.